Love Economics

When I contemplate the economics of our

relationship, I can see that you are winning,

in control, because I invest

and invest without the return I expect.

I calculate further and see that

my expectations are not based

on anything solid.

So, then I doubt myself and 

later find myself addicted to my wisdom

because I know that I know what is

going on but I just don't do anything about it.

It is my excuse for being a pussy

not following my gut instinct

thinking that thinking is the way 

to figure this problem out.

But it isn't you.  You aren't the problem.

You are perfect, I have seen it and 

and still want it but the truth is that

I would rather not contemplate

the economics of my relationships

unless I am at work or bargaining at a tent

over some already low priced

artifact of what will be a priceless memory.

I am thinking too much.  I am being a hunting

adult and calculating, as I should,

the prospect of being in a room

of a house about to go to sleep.

Turning off the light, putting myself in the bed

and saying "I love you" and 
meaning it with all my heart.