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If and when you feel yourself nervous or anxious,

and if these feelings are composed of thoughts of what needs to be done

in order to achieve a certain goal in life

and

if these feelings are stirred

by the compulsion to participate more

in the actualization of this achievement

or inadequacy,

take a moment to release this nervous, anxious energy into your energy field;

take a moment to acknowledge your energy field

and the fact that it's grandeur is not your inadequacy

but your reservoir for Being

and sometimes what needs to be actualized 

is Calm and Faith with Inaction

rather than Self and Progress with Action.

dilute your potent feelings in the microcosm of universe that surrounds your being and mass,

see them hanging there as not yours and not you,

thus can their energies be inverted (or converted) and

then used to your benefit

without disturbing your Calm.

The intelligence surrounding you

(your energy field and forces from which it is composed)

is more ancient than your own

and thus wiser,

at least in some ways (and with certain species of energy).

Think as much about what the universe can do for you

to help you achieve your goals

as you can do for yourself to achieve your goals.

Recall the hierarchy of your goals

and do not confuse this:

achieving the goal will not bring Peace

or anything other than a certain satisfaction.

Peace you possess now

and peace you should protect.

The actualization of your goal is your pleasure, your privilege,

your busy-ness, your expression of what it is to Live.

The capacity, desire, and determination to do so --

unhesitatingly, no matter what -- are your Gifts.
Discard these and you will create the paradoxical beast,
sufferer of misalignment, the Destructive Self,
who claims and acts as if he prefers The End over Tomorrow, any day;

so long as the Death is slow and feels good

(excessive smoke, drink, anything; dangerous highs;
sympathetic, enabling affection for his
deep and intellectual laments, perceptive enough to know
he is wrong but so in love with his perceptive abilities
that being wrong is his beautiful rebel doppelganger savant,
the fairest and most sincere He knows or is willing to be,
a bona fide higher self;
the most romantic, noble death a good heart can have, actually.
A stubborn martyr. Shivering with courage
in the freezing shadows of doubt...)

and doesn't actually snuff him.

But I've digressed; indeed, I know this sad,
doomed archetype too well.

Peace is not what you get when you get There

it is what you carry and hold dear along the way,

(it is what keeps Here always Here
just like Now is always Now,
even if it was a little while ago
or will be way later, the fact remains:

Here must always be Here).

along with Love

and Faith

and Forgiveness.

When you arrive There (The Here from which all Heres hail)

rich and successful and accomplished

they will not ask for a check

autograph, diploma, badge
or anything like that.

They will ask to see your Peace

your Love and your Forgiveness
and expect that, along with your Heart,
each is in better condition than the day you got them.

"That was the meaning of your Life,
were those who told you different so convincing?
You can always go back try again.
Go on back, then.  There are fresh new bodies
you can chose from.  I'm afraid you won't remember anything
in any one of them, but eventually you'll just get it... "

Handing these over to the Saint at the Gate,

or using them to build a bridge

over the Great Abyss between

Here and There ... however you see it,
the point is

it is with these precious

and natural resources

that We return to Purity.

Nothing else.