con·science: early 13c., from O.Fr. conscience...from L. conscientia "knowledge within oneself, sense of right, a moral sense," from conscientem (nom. consciens), prp. of conscire "be (mutually) aware," from com- "with," or "thoroughly" (see com-) + scire "to know" (see science). Probably a loan-translation of Gk. syneidesis, lit. "with-knowledge." Sometimes nativized in O.E./M.E. as inwit. Russian also uses a loan-translation, so-vest, "conscience," lit. "with-knowledge." (Merriam-Webster)
Saturday, November 13, 2021
When the Dust Settles
Monday, November 8, 2021
Of Those Who Dance in the Rain
She told me baby
take it slow
so I took off my socks
put down my beer
and went
naked outside
because I had been saying
that Nature is alive and real
and calling us to save her, man!
but I got too excited about it.
I danced in that warm tropical rain.
My mother had secretly warned her
about what she called my manias
but which both my wife and I
considered to be more like
spiritual experiences and
sometimes divinations. That
is a chasm that reaches deep into history
and continues to fracture
modern western society.
These very digressions in logic
were signs of clinical crazy.
Nonetheless,
I danced in the rain and
It was as if her veins were made of
rusted roads,
there was dust
that blew through
there was mud
without shoes
and when you're literally
dancing in the rain you're shivering
at the beginning of it
and then you adjust
and take a deep breath
and, Christ, that feeling is
more than just the body
it's like you are the chill that goes
all the way into that dark
and the air is like something thick
and invisible
palpably pregnant with, quite literally,
all possibilities.
And we can by seeing them
and moving them
make them real.
And so I danced in the rain.
Sometimes it all shifts and feels as if
it is organic in ways
that are metric, tantric, serpentine scales
unfolding always, everywhere like fast flowers,
mathematically abstractable molecules
of logical modules of the mind, man.
And that is the rain at night, in the summer,
when it is warm it is better,
in my opinion, for dancing in the rain,
but the weather always seems
to have a feeling of it's own
if you go
into the yard and forget where you are
and remember you're never not here
you might hear that rain
sing,
you might
hear a bird within
and the two might dance
like a breeze pushing forth
the more vague components
of the moment
and then violá:
you have gone and come back again
you have been all and there you are,
dancing, like a fool or a shaman,
who is to say,
dancing like either one
in the rain.
And if if you didn't see it, one can imagine,
and just by still-imagining,
imagining without action,
one feels as if one travels,
so just imagine when
dancing in the rain
and the whole beautiful myth
being real for a spell.
If that is not freedom,
innocent, harmless freedom,
then I don't know what is.
when the rain melts and bleeds
and sings and signals
the lines of shifts in the winds
of time for minute
the cat is in the box
and in the next
we are the ones
scratching at the walls
we ourselves built.
Meditation
New days are only
a glance away
from your head position.
Turn both ears
toward your chest
and listen.
Take your wallet
our of your pocket
when you sit
and when your hips
are straight
pay all of your attention.
There will be an attraction
to a form where your spine
is aligned and feeling ideal
not provoked like some serpent
but prepared for life's ordeals
and prepared to build,
from what sometimes seems nothing at all,
a life worth living
worth avoiding the dangers
and pitfalls.
One wonders because he
recognizes the truth, so
one wonders how far
does he, in fact, wander
from the truth
and thus
his wondering is
for forgiveness.
And this is when
the face of Jesus shapes
in the clouds on
one's way running to stay healthy
alone in a street
so perfect the moment
for the Lord to sneak me
a peak of his boutique of
unique possibilities
for those who believe
Caveman (song idea)
I don't want to shake the
fragile ground you walk on
but I'm in the clouds right now
You make me think of old days
when what you said
didn't make me lonely,
I know times change,
we grow and we try,
lord knows we try to stay the same
the flame alive,
fire in our lair,
I'm a caveman,
though I haven't been lately
go lay your body
and I'll meet you there
Friday, November 5, 2021
bohemia
"Woman asleep"
Tuesday, November 2, 2021
Migration Reasons
These fair-weather feathers
blew south for a spell,
this was before the
morning chimes sang through us
sending kings to the floor
and fools to the post,
I could smell those days a´coming,
like fire in the wind
upstream, blowing back at us
as we fished and lived in bliss.
Tides rise and fall, I suppose
and we shan't be scared,
but we do scare,
we run home from the crook,
wet shoed and broken twigs
behind,
the hot breath of safety
in which we lay low for a moment
gust away in an atomic wind
the worst of outcomes
for we'd have starved to the end
if that is what He'd asked of us.
Man, take away your bellicose tin,
your toys of cataclysm,
potent bombs like balls hanging
before a greedy, hungry slut.
Ah, the forrest and the creatures
through which God sees.
To take them is to gouge out an eye,
to dismember the bread
to undo the risen flesh
upon which we omnivors feed,
to do so is the cast away belief
like a ghost mistakenly made sacred
after millenia of men,
and now who are we
say the ancients who never slept,
who are we to claim to know,
to be beyond belief?
Ay, how men self deceive
and in such deception render
every solider of love weeping,
the day of an impossible surrender
has come to pass,
they cry, they gasp,
the clasp at their own finger tips,
the gnaw out their own hearts,
they bleed for you and me,
and we will all die
and you may come back.
So while here, learn love from
hard to tender, from solid to mist,
from slave to savior, from addict
to prophet, from pulpits and upon graves
songs sang and words writ,
but none like that which
silence tells us all,
speaking in riddles and confounding dreams,
tangled into life like all the things nobody sees.
